I absolutely hate that you had to go through that.
I despise what your father said to you. I am filled with anger when I think of how your friends did that unimaginable thing. My heart breaks for the pain that you endured at the hands of people who should have loved you. I am genuinely sorry about the broken relationships, physical struggles, emotional baggage, and spiritual letdowns you have endured.
Sadly, I cannot fix any of the things that happened in the past. I sincerely wish I could go back and erase it all.
All I can do is point you to Jesus. I can tell you that in him, you will find grace, forgiveness, compassion, peace, hope, and love. I can promise you that I, and other Christians like me, will do our best to love, support, and encourage you.
If you are looking for a way to remove the painful scars of the past, all I can tell you is that Jesus is the ultimate healer, and I will show him to you to the best of my ability.
I can’t fix your problems, and I hate that, but I can tell you about Jesus, and you can allow him to make sense of your pain.