Trying to Hide My Insecurities

Insecurity is defined as “being uncertain about oneself; a lack of confidence.”

Everyone has it. There are things in life we are just unsure about or feel a genuine sense of lacking. When these feelings arrive, we usually try to stuff them down inside while showing false confidence to the world.

If I were honest, I mean painfully and embarrassingly frank with you, I would tell you about all my insecurities. I often feel I am failing in my roles. Being a husband and a father is demanding, frequently I feel like a failure. Then there is my job that worries me. I have never achieved all that I dreamed I could when I was younger.

I have a long list of insecurities that I try to cover and hide from the world.

God pushes us in a different direction. The apostle Paul said in his letter to the Church in Corinth.

2 Corinthians 12:9 But he (God) said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

Did he boast about his weaknesses?

That doesn’t sound right to me. That is not how I was raised. Weaknesses are to be covered and stuffed inside. I should act like I don’t have insecurities. Never let them see you sweat.

Paul says that our weaknesses and insecurities are the places where God works in our lives. Those are the places his power can shine the brightest. God can take my life, even with all that it is lacking, and build a great family and a wonderful Church. He can take my weakness and do something amazing. Not because I am great but because he is all-powerful.

I know you are worn out from trying to hide all your insecurities. You tell stories that make you sound like you have everything figured out. Your social media is an ongoing display of how well you are doing in life. Even your pictures you post are at just the right angle so that everything looks perfect. All the while you are completely unsure of yourself and have a lack of confidence.

What if, like Paul, you embraced your weakness? What if you admitted your insecurities and allowed God to work through those?

I bet if you did you would finally feel a sense of God’s presence in your life. No longer would you have to live behind the façade of your own creation, but you could walk in the power of God.

His grace is sufficient, not only for salvation but to cover your insecurities.

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